He stood right there,
Right in front of my eyes,
The wish I had badly wanted
Had finally been granted.
I had prayed I’d find
Someone,
The one person I’d stand behind,
Wipe his tears,
Together we’d fight his fears
But…….
It was just for a moment
He was gone just like the wind
For one and a half,
We had walked a path,
It would be forever and for always, we’d said
But it took the blink of an eye for him to lose me and me him
The pain left me reminiscing.
For Him I was just a call away
And for sure I was there to stay
I would have wanted it to stay that way,
But I guess it wasn’t fate’s way.
It might sound crazy but this I’ll say,
I hope that I shall see you again someday.
This time for good we’ll stay,
In each other’s arms
Until death, us do part……..
I wrote this a year after I had broken up with my boyfriend. That is somewhere in January last year. Yes. He was the first man I had ever loved. And what happened is he broke my heart, or rather, I gave my heart out to be broken. I guess I was in so much pain that I wrote this. I had never written until I wrote this.
The reason I say I gave my heart out to be broken, is because it’s true. I chose to give my heart out on a platter to a man I hardly knew. Those of us who happened to go to public high schools, understand what a “big up” in a letter was. That is how I met my “prince charming” or so I thought.
I will tell you for free that this relationship drained me. I was(and still am) born again and he wasn’t. I had to choose. I wanted both but I had to give into one. I lost myself because I didn’t want to hurt him. I think I went through more pain in the relationship than when I chose to walk away……
No wonder they say that birds of a feather flock together.
God didn’t love me any less. He just gave me the will to make a choice and I made a wrong choice whose consequences of pain, loneliness and regret I suffered. He waited for me and embraced me in His arms and told me that everything’s going to be okay.
The Bible says in Songs of Solomon (three times in fact) that you should not awaken love until it so desires. Be patient. Don’t jump into a relationship because your friend thinks your colleague is super hot, or because your body is telling you yes. Relationships with the wrong person are draining and you end up unhappy, with a lot of regrets. You end up wasting time you would have spent doing better things or building your life. Give yourself time before giving your time and self to someone else.
Always remember that you are the best and you deserve nothing but the best…….
Lots of love
Sheerow
Baraka
Sheerow
